{crappy}

- that is the only way to describe today . . . truly crappy. It’s cold, windy, rainy, gloomy, . . . my list can go on.



No matter the weather – when I woke up this morning, I had a decision to make and I knew that crappy was going to be Monday, November 26th, 2007.

On February 3rd, 2003 I got horrible news that I would have to put my diabetic cat down – kidneys failing, lethargic, skeleton of a cat. It had been just me and her for so long. I was devastated. I decided to do “it” the next morning.

That night a dog showed up on my front porch. An ugly, mutt-looking dog. Lonnie came home and asked where the dog came from?! Now, I’m thinking, “that fool has done brought home a dog! An ugly, mutt-looking dog.” He swore he didn’t, but it was so hard to believe – he had been wanting a dog for a while and I only agreed if we could wait about a year {or 5} after Katt died. {yes – that was her name. I know – very original, but she too was a stray and just always seemed to answer to “cat”.} I knew that dog would just go away. After all, we agreed not to feed her so she should move on to the next house. Right?? Wrong . . . .

After I put the cat down, Lonnie took that ugly, mutt-looking dog to the vet and had her checked out & shot up – you know, all the stuff you do when you adopt ANOTHER stray. We were then informed that she was a Sheltie, a blue-merle = this means she isn’t the typical breed, she is a little rare, about “$500 more than an average sheltie” rare. Okay, so now maybe she isn’t so “mutt-looking” to everybody else, but she is to me!! I agreed to keep this dog only if Lonnie took care of her – he was the one that wanted a dog!!

Six days later, we got news of Lonnie’s deployment!! That is what happens, you know, when you are in the military . . . . and you just adopted the dog “you always wanted.” Good news – he was only gone for 4 months, uhmmm . . . just long enough for his dog to become my dog.

I named her Frenchie . . . because she tried to “french” anyone who got their face too close to hers. It was if she was soooo happy that she got to live with us. She would prance as if she was in some Eukakanuba (sp?) ring about to win the grand title . . . she was sooo beautiful.

I had to put Frenchie down today, she had a tumor. I couldn’t see her suffering. I was so attached, more so than I was to that cat. She came at a very needed time . . . I needed her and she needed me. I held her till the end. She had to know I was there – I feel horrible. Those who know me and my dog personally are probably in just as much shock as I am right now to hear this news. I had been battling with what to do for several days. My gut told me it was cancer. Today, Dr. Weaver just confirmed it. Man, I would hate to have his job.

I’ve got everything ready to post the next project, just give me a day. Sorry for the wait. . . . I’ve just got the worse headache.

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About Kim
I picked up a paint brush for the first time 7 years ago, and haven't put it down since. My goal - To paint a canvas for my son's nursery. I never dreamed a business would be born out of it. {And if you saw the first canvas, you would think the same thing, too!}

Comments

  1. Courtney says:

    Kim… I’m so sorry. Hugs to you! and no worries about the project timing. You take care of yourself… all the crafty gals will wait. ;)

  2. Cara says:

    Kim: I’m so sorry!!! Words can’t explain what you are feeling, but I know it’s hard, but you did the right thing. I’ll talk to you later…

  3. Rosie's Whimsy says:

    Oh my, I am so truly sorry. I have both cats and dogs. They mean so very much to me and I know how painful it is to have to make that decision. I have held everyone of pets when I have had to do that final best thing for them. it is always so hard. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

  4. Anonymous says:

    So Sorry to hear about your loss. I had to let go of my dog over seven years ago and I loved him so much I still think about him. You too will get through and hopefully you will find another dog that needs your love, there are many. We did.

  5. Jenn says:

    Oh, Kim, I’m so sorry. We loved Frenchie, too! What a sweetie she was and I always admired her for her tolerance of the girls. Give Tiddles a hug for us as I am sure that she misses her sissy. Hugs to you all~

  6. Natalie says:

    Kim ~ there was just an audible gasp coming all the way from Tampa. I am SO sorry ….. Frenchie was such a sweet girl to my kids ~ we’ll miss her. Hugs to you, Lonnie, the kids and Tidbit.

  7. Laurie4567@aol.com says:

    I am so sorry you had to say good-bye to your sweet, pretty Frenchie. I have been there, done that as they say, it is heartbreaking. She was a lucky dog to have you.

  8. Mommy says:

    I am so sorry Kim. Our craft can wait my friend…I hope you feel better soon.

  9. Melissa Santanastasio says:

    Ugh What a sad thing. I am so sorry, take the time to remember all the wet kisses she gave you.

  10. Wendy says:

    Oh Kim,
    I am so sorry. I had to put my Logan down a few years ago because he had cancer, and it was so hard. Give yourself time to to cry. If you need to talk call me.

  11. Holly says:

    Oh Kim I am so sorry. Dont you worry about the crafts. We can wait! Take care.

  12. Debe says:

    I am so very sorry. I live with 2 dogs and 3 cats right now. I know your heart is breaking. What a beautiful dog she was…I am just so sad for you. I have my clear ornaments and they can just wait!!

  13. Anonymous says:

    Kim-I am so sorry for your loss. I know exactly what you are going through. I will be thinking of you and Frenchie.

    Tracy

  14. Rachel says:

    Sweet Frenchie–she will be missed. You know she is the one Jake always talks about even though it is Tiddles that stays in his face and Frenchie just hung out by the vent in your room! (old house) =)

  15. Jean J in NC says:

    Dear Kim
    I am so sorry to hear about your beloved Frenchie. My heart goes out to you! I lost my beloved kitty, Sabrina, a few months back and thought I would suffocate from the heartbreak. My prayers are with you during your time of loss.

  16. melissajackson says:

    I emailed you about this, but again, wanted to say how sorry I am about your loss-animals are like family members!

  17. Joanne says:

    Hey Kim, Just reading this. So sorry to hear about Frenchie. As you know our Boston (Blair’s Boston!), Nash is now 11 1/2 and his beginning his decline. I know it will be difficult for Blair to let go when it’s time. I am so thankful she could be there for you during your time of need and hers.

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